Monday, June 22, 2009

my keyboard was spoiled.. some keys aint functioning. it is so irritating to use the onscreen keyboard. so i am glad a new keyboard is here! :)

that may perhaps explain one of the reasons why i havent been blogging. this is just minor.. one word to describe the june hols - agonising!!! you will go omg can i just die. i am trying my best to cultivate a positive mind. lol. this is the 4th week right? haha but i was so stressed out during the 2nd and 3rd week that i was already birds-flying-round-and-round-on-my-head. i study each subject per week.. 2nd and 3rd week is geo and chinese literature respectively. seriously geography is the most extensive subject i can tell you! & the thing is.. wk 2 has passed so supposedly i am ready for geo? but it seems like i have forgotten everything.. o_O (plus mr yeo says he wants no failures oh oh)

i wasnt able to study well this june hols. i sleep early but couldnt get to sleep and wake up at 12 almost everyday. (yes, yet the black circles + puffy eye bags are still hunting me!) to study for 2 hours, 3 hours of play is needed.

sorry for the rants :s i know many people are facing the same situation.

(switch of a subject: my bro went for his bmt/army.. )
that day my dad was asking me, "dont you miss your bro" i was "..." after a pause, i said, "the person who is missing is asking me if i am missing?" i dont know.. i din like how my dad asked me. it seems like he thinks our relationship is that bad. okay even if it is, am i such a cold blooded person?! zz anyway you know when the son goes for NS, the mother is always so worried.. first few days my mum was told "dont worry" lol then after a few days the training gets more intensive, then cannot make it already.. to say the truth, i am worried la (esp so with his weak body, bad eating habits, lousy attitude, etc) - -

recently another NS man died in tw or sth? not sure.. but i think the increasing no of NS men dieing is a worrying trend. many of them die not at the moment of intense training but when they are all well and jumping then suddenly just die. its bizzare.. i have heard of many difficulties in army. i am so glad girls are exempted from NS.

my whole family aint sports inclined. LOL! i dont understand why people get so surprised when i said i want go running.. its not that i dont like running, in fact i like running but its the mindset that "i cant run" that refrains me from running. after i failed nafa, i joined the special PE training (LOL) and finally i passed. i realised i can actually run, but of course at my own pace and its enjoyable. i always say i dont like people who are sports inclined. guess thats not true, i am just being envy of them..

the same thing can be said about dancing. my dad commented that his "investment failed". maybe not alot of people know.. i actually started dancing way before secondary school, even before primary school. dad sent me for dancing classes since young and took some examinations too. i sort of gave up dancing after my Os ended. my passion for dance didnt just fade away for a moment but its due to a cumulative number of factors esp in my secondary school years..

oh well.. study hard and all the best!