Saturday, August 15, 2009

why do i still not feel the rush when its so darn near huh.. when i am still so lacking in content, and can actually get 0 for a chinese comprehension test (its quite a setback but i have become nonchalent :/)

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guess i cant be nonchalent about it.. i faced it today again and i felt terribly bad. esp after i saw the contrast and ranking. i have fallen back so much, much to the last fews. :( while i lament on how bad i had done, perhaps there are others who have done worse. but its the anxiety that when there's once, theres gona be another and another. i am not all too strong. i have fallen, hard.

i am just feeling so depressed.. i went to brought alot of titbits. i wish i could burst a pack of chips but i didnt la, obviously i ate it. i have been eating quite alot lately though i skip meals frequently. dream on me wanting to build abs.