Saturday, March 06, 2010

reflection reflection! my result is unsatisfactory.. :( Only got one grade with an edgy top (jiangtao). I am sad for awhile, cried for a while and then accept and forget it. But when the reality strikes, i cant help but feel sad and lost. i had it coming but who dont wish for a miracle! Like my parents said, i reap what i sow.. I admit i am playful and not working hard enough. Seems to be always settling for mediocrity. quit blaming weird math questions, or pushing it to being in a sick state for cll. i am working hard, but just not hard enough.. confidence isnt enough.

this is how sg works. if you miss any A, even one, everything becomes unsecured. sg is small, theres only 2 universities (excluding smu since some ppl dont consider smu at all). raffles hwa chong are enough to fill up the popular courses. raffles got 304 students scoring 7 distinctions, 80+ scoring 8 distinctions. getting 3 distinctions is easy feat to them. then where do we stand?
if you got deep pockets, go overseas. my plan now is to try for nus fass (will still apply biz sch although chances are minimal) and i have got plans to apply for german universities. for practical reasons, theres no tuition fees. to me, studying overseas is a new experience but it means getting out of my comfort zone, learning to be independent in an unfamilar environment, esp if you dont understand the local language. i am gathering courage, so oversea study is a possibility.. since theres no guarantee i'll get into fass, i nd to create alternatives.

on a lighter note, i am gg europe for a holiday in may! hahaha i am so looking forward. paying the deposit itself has already burned my pocket (amount i earned during work is not enough to cover) to think i am haboring thoughts of getting a swiss watch (tag!) and branded bags. ok i need money $.$ later you see me come back everyday eat loti hahaha

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found job! but the boss is scary! pay is l-o-w